Sunday, 2 October 2016
It was a beach holiday of sorts, but we didn't pack our bathers. Or our tent, or any of our camping gear for that matter. The forecast has been bleak these holidays, and our camping plans were scrapped in favour of a quick getaway around the coast; where we enjoyed one day of glorious sunshine between hailstorms.
Windy Harbour was surprisingly tranquil the morning after our arrival, and we walked on the empty beach and played cricket in the sunshine out the back of our beach shack. Back through the trees and around the twisting curves of the Warren River we drove until we emerged on the great drifts of snowy white sand dunes that are piled up against the forest near the river's mouth. We leapt and rolled down the steepest of the dunes, getting rather dizzy and disoriented in the process, then piled back into the car for a bumpy ride to the beach where the boys staged an impromptu foam party in the waves. Thea kicked around in the tannin stained waters of the river mouth and Quinn drew circles around every thing he could find on the beach that came from the sea.
After a stormy night the ocean was transformed into a broiling mass of turbulence and white caps. The wind turbine over the settlement's tiny store was spinning so fast it looked like it was ready to launch from its post and cartwheel away over the fishermen's houses and holiday shacks. We drove out to Point D'Entrecasteaux and watched the sea foaming on both sides of the peninsula, then turned the car around and headed for home, stopping to walk through the karri forest in Walpole when the rain let up for a little while.
I adore Windy Harbour. I have a soft spot for shack towns, and love to wander around picking out my favourite and imagining what I would do with it if it was mine. There aren't many places left like it now, although they used to be dotted up and down the coast. None of us really wanted to leave, as bleak and stormy as it had become. With a log fire and a pile of boardgames back at the shack we could happily have stayed for a week. We'll be back.
Friday, 9 September 2016
It hasn't warmed up enough for the snakes to start coming out of their winter hibernation. So Darcy made sure he packed a rubber one for our hike up the mountain. Endless fun was had planting it just ahead of us on the path, or in the low hanging branches of a tree to fall on unsuspecting heads.
We had the mountain track all to ourselves on the last pupil free day of winter. The boys each carried their own pack this time, but I still wore Thea on my back for a good part of the way up, and the whole way back. Up and down, up and down she climbed; in and out of her sling. Stopping to eat corn crackers and peanut butter on the granite outcrops, and paddle in the icy puddles left by the winter rain. I lifted her in front of me like a rock wallaby for the last steep incline, hopping up the slippery slopes. It wasn't quite the top, but it was good enough for us.
Coming back down I swore it was the last mountain I would carry her up, as my back groaned in complaint. We refilled our water bottles from a gnamma hole, collected ants for Lewis' ant farm and twisted tiaras from tendrils of sundew. Six hours on the mountain - a full school day of walking, with some history, biology and snakes thrown in.
Tuesday, 9 August 2016
I'm trying to hold on to that sense of expansiveness that comes with a break in routine and an open horizon. But it is hard not to feel hemmed in when most of my days of late have been spent wrapped in layers of wool; hot water bottles and rugs placed strategically around my body and the heater struggling to keep our house just warm enough. The photos help my body to remember a warmer time and place, where anything seemed possible.
We washed a week of salt water and sand from our skin in an artesian hot tub, then smoked ourselves in front of the campfire, roasting apples and jacket potatoes and marshmallows on sticks. We climbed to the highest point in the Murchison and looked across the vast plains, where burrowing bees build little nests in the ground from the red dirt. The kids tore around in a frenzy of excitement when they awoke to find their tent capped with frost, a taste of what was waiting for us back home.
There has been snow on the mountains again this week. One day I'll drag the kids up there to play in the faint dusting that falls once or twice each year. Right now, keeping warm is more of a priority. I'm baking bread, simmering soup, and filling little bellies with warm citrus puddings and hot lemon drinks. And I'm writing, slowly but surely finding the words to tell this story.
Friday, 22 July 2016
What I need, more than anything else, to help me get through the long southern winters, is a good dose of sunshine and salt water. We may have to drive for three days to find it, but boy, is it worth it.
We pitched our tent alongside some old friends on a scrubby bit of ground one dune away from a deserted sandy beach where I ducked into the warm water for a skinny-dip each morning. Our kids mucked about in the dunes, digging for treasure, building forts and carving daggers out of old jarrah boards rotting in the sand. They frolicked in the rolling waves, gentler on the shore than out on the reef, where they boomed day and night. Whales breached beyond the reef, leaping high above the white horses. We watched them swimming past while we nursed a cup of tea in our hands most mornings, spotting turtles from the shore.
Paddling out to the reef, where we tethered our kayaks before slipping beneath the surface, we marvelled at the coral and its residents before surprising a sleeping shark dozing beneath a giant bombie. Ducking down to get a better look, I discovered its length stretched further and further around the coral outcrop, until I spotted its tail curving up from its farthest edge, at which point we thought it prudent to swim back to the kayaks. On to the next dive site, where a giant groper disappeared into an underwater cave before I could point it out to my friend. That morning on the reef, along with the shallow water snorkelling I guided Darcy through from beneath a sheltering arm, introducing him for the first time to the world beneath the waves, will remain with me forever.
A week of shining days of sun, saltwater, and swimming with the fish. We carried it home with us, smiles splitting open faces dusted with sunshine.
Monday, 1 February 2016
I wrote this piece a few years ago for a friend's magazine, which never saw its second edition. The theme for the edition was confusion. It is by far my favourite story, and the one people usually remember when they think of me. It happened way back in the days of film, so I have no photographs to share; they were all on slides - the most obsolete medium of them all. Instead, here is a photo from the rockabilly party I went to last weekend. I am usually the one behind the lens, or at the very least with a child on my hip. I was channelling my grandma: beehive, red lipstick and all. Getting in character, if you will. She had four children too; three boys and a girl, my mother. History repeats.
The people standing over me were dressed all in white and spoke a language I did not understand. Usually the shock of coming back into my body disoriented me for a minute or two. I never knew who or where I was, or who was with me. As a child I had cried whenever I left that warm, welcoming place I travelled to for the seconds my heart stopped beating, while my body stiffened and my lips turned blue then deathly white. Once it was the shock of biting into a cold ice-cream that had started the seizure. I woke up cold on the burning hot concrete of our driveway. More often it was a needle, or a painful blow to my elbow that set me off. It was usually only a matter of seconds before I started to recognise the voices and faces around me.
But these people were strangers and the rapid fire Portuguese they exchanged over my head frightened me. It was like time travelling to some unknown place in time and space and having to survive on my wits alone as I took in my new surroundings. Gazing down the length of my body, laid flat on a metal hospital trolley covered with a white sheet, I could see the feet of the ward’s other patients. The gangrenous toes of an unwashed man dressed in rags. The purplish flesh of a prostitute burnt by the fierce Brazilian sun. They had been momentarily abandoned by the medical staff, now clustered around my head, gazing at something just out of my line of sight with intense interest.
The male nurse who had escorted me from the emergency ward, his tight white jeans striding ahead of me down the corridor, exchanged meaningful glances with the ward’s beautiful bronzed female nursing staff. “Pienso que hay una insecta en mi cabeza,” I had told him in broken Spanish as we climbed the stairs. He had looked at me with curiosity before asking, in perfect English, “What do you think is in your head?”
Arriving at the polytrauma ward I took in the burnt and rotting human flesh of some of the city’s least fortunate inhabitants and sat meekly on a chair, suddenly feeling my throbbing head to be but a scratch I should not have bothered them with. The doctor shaved a small patch around the sore and injected the area with local anaesthetic before slicing his scalpel across my scalp. I hardly felt the sting, so quickly did I slide into unconsciousness. There was the strange smell, like some laboratory gas burning the back of my nostrils, and the tingling in my head and limbs as I slumped to the ground. And then nothing. At least I never can remember what I have seen, although it lingers like a memory just out of reach. I always feel like I have been gone a long time. I am never sure that I want to be back.
“There is a little worm in your head,” the doctor said in English, when he saw that I was awake, “And it doesn’t want to come out.” I squirmed on the trolley, writhing in horror at the thought of my body’s passenger these three weeks’ past. I had been parting my hair and showing my inflamed scalp to pharmacists and hotel owners, bus passengers and backpackers from La Paz to Rio de Janeiro. The stinging red spot, which a Bolivian pharmacist told me was an allergic reaction to some unknown Amazonian insect, had quickly grown into a pustulent boil. Shooting pains radiated from my head down the length of my spine, forcing me to clench my teeth to stop myself from screaming every time the creature started feeding on my flesh. But even with a mirror I could not angle my head sufficiently to gain a glimpse of its crimson crown.
I had fallen asleep on the train ride across the vast wetlands that divide Bolivia’s tropical lowlands from the vast Brazilian interior, my head slumping out the open window into the thick, warm, night air. One of the jungle trees grown close to the track swiped the top of my head, across the very tip of the worm’s breathing hole, as the train rattled past. I woke screaming, clenching my jaw and quickly clamping down on my vocal chords to try not to wake the other passengers. All the tendons in my neck were taut with pain, my eyes bulging as I tried to absorb the enormity of it without the soothing outlet of sound. In the moonlight I spied a little girl tucked against her mother’s sleeping body across the aisle, her eyes wide and confused as she looked at my silent facial contortions.
Two more days in a bus with a broken toilet remained between me and Rio. I had not brushed my hair in weeks, pulling the knotted tresses gingerly over the weeping wound. The only foreigner in a bus full of gregarious Brazilians, we bonded over plates of salty meat at roadside restaurants, laughing at the stench that filled the coach from the cracked chemical toilet. Everyone took turns examining my scalp and agreed I should seek medical help as soon as I reached the city. I felt engulfed in the warm embrace of these beautiful people, as welcoming as the inhabitants of the Andean plateau had been aloof. The relief of physically blending into the crowd again, after towering head and shoulders over the slightly built indigenous people of Central and South America for six months, was enormous. Even my blue eyes, which had caused muchachos to hurl themselves at my bus and entire schools to line up to have their photo taken alongside me, were somewhat normal here, where eyes of every colour shone from faces white, black and every shade in between.
The doctor pressed at my head, wiping away the pus while he tried to catch the tail of the worm as it darted back inside its hole. Plucking it from the wound he dropped it in a specimen jar where it kicked and jerked in the cold air. A gasp went up from the crowd gathered around my head. Bot fly larvae were not usually seen this far south, although they were common in the Amazon, where they plagued the country’s cattle farmers. It was about a centimetre long, thicker at one end than the other, with black and white stripes the length of its body. I am sure it was confused. It was so close to achieving its life’s purpose; to growing wings and flying.
The doctor cleaned the wound and wrapped a white crepe bandage around my head. No dressing would stick to my hair, so I walked back out onto the streets of Ipanema looking like an escaped psychiatric patient. I bought myself a pink bikini and lay on the beach. I wasn’t allowed to get my head wet for three days, so I baked on the sand and waded into the waist deep waves.
The city was preparing itself for New Years Eve, and the dawn of the new millennium on Copacabana Beach. I removed my bandage, dressed in white and joined the crowds on the sand, lighting candles and tossing roses, perfume and wine into the waves for the sea goddess Iemanja. At midnight the sky exploded, fireworks trailing sparks over the white sea foam. My body now throbbed with the beat of samba and the heaving crowd. Around me I heard snatches of conversation in a dozen different languages. I dived into the water and stroked out behind the waves in my white dress. On the shore a line of men stood urinating into the sea. I looked across the waves at another boy swimming in the midnight sea and laughed as I caught the next wave back to shore.